You give back what you give away.

This is what I really miss about writing fanfiction. The reviews. Knowing that someone took their time to read what I had to say, and that it actually touched them… I can’t describe it. It’s the only time I’ve ever felt that I make a difference, when someone takes their time to review my story and say what they thought about it. It’s a good kind of validation I feel like I’ve earned. I’ve been told ridiculously nice things. They didn’t seem to get to me then, but looking back… wow.

I loved it when I was told that they could relate to my characters, because it meant that they could relate to me.
I loved it when I left it on a cliffhanger and I got angry mails asking for the next chapter, because it showed interest.
I loved it when I got praised over romantic bits, since I’ve never lived anything remotely close to that, and it speaks a lot about the way I can understand the human nature.

I loved to know that I didn’t do it for them, but I did it for myself. True, they kept me going, but I wasn’t pleasing anyone when writing.

It’s funny how my writing is the only thing I’m not insecure about. It’s the only thing I’m… normal about lol. I will never say I’m the best, there are many styles I admire and would choose over mine… but I love writing, I love what I do. I’m confident in it.

I want to write.